Dementia

"Dementia".....When I first heard my husband say that word I thought he didn't know what he was talking about, i actually got on line and looked up the word...and found it was an actual disease. i have never told him that i looked it up and that i first thought he didn't know what he was talking about but now that i see my mother-in-law living with it, it breaks my heart, not only for her but for Big John. About 4 months ago i had a bookmark in my bible and on the back of the bookmark i had wrote....I love you Lord and i will do whatever you want for me to do... well a month to the date i get a call from my mom that my mother-in-law wasn't looking to good, you see john had asked my mom if he would send her money so she would go and buy her a plate lunch or a taco because at least he would know she was getting fed a good meal and if my mom would bring it to her, well my mom said yes and she would go and bring her food...well one day she went and out of concern she called me and asked if we would be making a trip to Texas any time soon to see her because she didn't look too good. All i could say was mom i will ask john. Well i told john and he said not this week but we will see when we can go. Well my mom kept on taking her food and checking up on her. But a month after i had put that on my bookmark i found myself on my way to Texas to go "check on" my mother-in-law and when we got there my husband said what do i do and i said we will do whatever you want and we will make it work. Well we took her and started our way back to Louisiana with her. The drive was good for the first 5 hours until my mother-in-law forgot who we were and started getting upset. it was then that John and i knew it was alot worst that we had first thought. I spent a week in the hospital with her and started looking up this word "DEMENTIA". in my search i found it is a very unforgiving disease and it is very tough to deal with someone in this state of mind. There has been times i wanted to give up and i have often wondered why am i doing this...well one day in church i got my answer.....i opened my bible and saw my bookmark and i felt God tell me you said you would do whatever I wanted and i looked at the date and it was a month exactly to the date that we were on our way to Texas. I love the Lord and know HIS way is perfect and i know no matter what HE gives me i can handle because HE will not give me anything I can't handle! with that said i want Big John to know that i love him so much and I will do whatever it takes to help him, and to my kids i thank you for your help in all this....we would not be able to go through this without you all helping out. I have a great boss who is understanding and allows me to be with her when i need to...It breaks my heart to see her in this condition and i cannot understand how someone can allow this to go on for so long and not to try to get her any help for her....BUT GOD KNOWS! and yes  I still "love the Lord and will do whatever He wants me to do"