HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! THANK YOU JESUS!

WELL TODAY I TURN 4!!! FOUR YEARS AGO I THOUGHT I WAS ON MY WAY TO HEAVEN BUT I WAS SO WRONG!!! WE HAD GONE TO A REVIVAL IN ODEM TEXAS WITH OUR BABY'S MOMMA---LOL OUR BEST FRIENDS! and Brother Sammy was preaching in Matthew 7---But when he got to verse 23



Matthew 7:23 And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.



it hit me like a rock! i knew i was lost but my pride got in the way and i thought there was no way i could be lost because i was married to a preacher, i lived right and dressed right, i taught Sunday school and helped in the bus ministry...you know all the "good stuff" but then my baby's momma went to the altar and got saved! it was then i knew i was lost but my pride got in the way. what were people going to say! well needless to say i did not get saved that night but on the way home i cried and cried and i told John how i felt and he started telling me i was fine... i was ok and i did everything right... and that would calm me down a little but then i would start up again and cry and he told me after a few times of telling me i was fine that he couldn't do that anymore well i cried some more and he told me the HOLY SPIRIT TOLD ME TO SHUT UP I CAN"T HELP YOU! and he stayed quite the whole ride home (an hour and a half of silence and me knowing i was lost and could not admit it because what were people going to think!) man was i scared but NO i didn't get saved!

well we got home and i cried some more and fell asleep. when i woke up i felt so dirty and i thought I'll get in the shower and i will be fine! well that didn't work! then we went to the church to go clean and work on the bus and i wanted to be near john because i figured if the rapture happened he'd take me with him! how crazy is that! well anyways i would talk to DeeDee and she would tell me you got to know and i would tell her i don't and she would keep at it---well i cried some more and then i went to look for John again and i could not find him! man i got so scared and i thought God took him. well after about 5 minutes of looking i found him underneath the bus and i told him please help me! and he says i can't and he told me i don't know what to do! I'm going to call pastor Howard in Louisiana...well he calls him and he puts me with Mrs' Howard and she says to me an i quote i will never forget...

"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?" i tell her i don't know if I'm saved or not and she tells me well sure you do. you have to know and after going back and forth with that she tells me if you don't know i can't help you! here's the preacher! well he gets on the phone and tells me--- Melinda whats wrong and i tell him i don't know if I'm saved and he tells me well sure you do and he tells me YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO! and at that point i knew! i started crying and asking God to forgive me AND A LITTLE AFTER 230 P.M. BEHIND THE OLD VICTORY BAPTIST CHURCH IN HARLINGEN TEXAS I GOT SAVED!!!! THE PEACE I FELT ON THAT DAY! I GOT SAVED THANK YOU JESUS!!!



so with that i want to say thank you to Brother Sammy and John for being sensitive to the Holy spirit! and to DeeDee for helping me out! and counseling with me! so for those of you who read this please be sure and don't worry about what other people will think if they are right with God they will rejoice with you! IT HAPPENED TO ME FOUR YEARS AGO!!! THANK YOU JESUS FOR BEING LONG SUFFERING AND FOR YOUR MERCY AND GRACE!!!